See, I think this is something pretty much all Sam haters don’t understand about him. When he went to Stanford it wasn’t because he hated John and it sure as fuck wasn’t because he didn’t love Dean. It wasn’t selfish. He wasn’t abandoning his family. He wanted to stay in contact with them, but then John pulled that line and the rest is history.
Let me tell you something. You think we’re exaggerating when we say hunting was killing Sam, but we’re not. The “family business” was poison to him. Sam was always kinder, gentler, more understanding, more willing to trust and love. That’s who he is and hunting was taking that away. He was forced into this life he hated, always moving around, always murdering things, always wondering if you or someone you loved was next. And he never got a say. Sure, he came back after Jess, died, but the thing is, that was his choice. He had to accept hunting on his own terms. He had to choose that path himself.
If he had listened to John and stayed, or never tried to leave in the first place, he would not be the Sam we know now. He needed those four years to establish a significant relationship outside of his narrow world and develop a solid identity for himself. Because think about it, what role did he play in the family? John was a protector, Dean was a protector. They understood each other, they were secure in their positions. But what was Sam? The protected? That’s not much of a role at all, is it. That’s not much of anything. How could anyone live their entire life feeling as though they were only something to be taken care of, never equal, never standing side-by-side with the others, always the burden, dragging down the people you love? You can’t. You just can’t. He loves John and Dean with all his heart and they love him back, but they loved him so much they didn’t realize they were smothering him with it.
If Sam hadn’t gone to Stanford he would be a shell of who he is now. Colder and quieter and more jaded and less loving. And that would truly be heartbreaking.
I don’t think I’ve ever read a more eloquent analysis of Sam Winchester. Gorgeous.
uriel’s a cockblock to be honest, but scrapping canon have some cut scenes:
Castiel stood up and swung toward Sam while Dean pushed his weapon down and introduced them. “Hello, Sam,” Castiel said.
“Oh my God,” Sam gasped and immediately fumbled. “I mean — What I meant is that—” He stopped and swallowed heavily, ignoring Dean’s weirded out stare out of the corner of his eye. “You’re way hotter than Dean said you were.”
you know what
it DOES feel very season one
and i applaud the writers in that sense because that’s what they wanted to do and they achieved it
but that doesn’t make it fantastic or compelling like it was in previous seasons. the show had evolved and developed into something beautiful and the…
I really wish they would stop, but I don’t see that happening…ever.
Supernatural 7x07 webclip #1
KILLING AMY WASN’T WRONG
KILLING AMY WASN’T WRONG
YOU ALMOST GOT US BOTH KILLED
QUIT BEING A BITCH
I’m sorry, but I really don’t think Sam would have been wrong to pop him one, here, and that is my honest opinion. I think that Dean, yes, deserves it, but he also needs a good hard punch in the jaw, because he needs to be knocked out of whatever fantasy world he’s living in, and back into the present and needs to start actually dealing with shit.
Also I enjoy this - they are back together but they are not hunky-dory.
Excite for episode is yes.
I didn’t think it would hurt this much. Ah, the pain.
But let me be clear for a moment. Because it does not surprise me at all that Dean still doesn’t believe that killing Amy was wrong. Because all Dean saw was that she was a monster and that she killed people.
What does bother me is that Dean used the fact that Sam is hallucinating against him. Because that is going to screw Sam up. Sam seems fine right now, yes, but we have to remember that Sam’s very sanity is dependent upon Dean. Sam convinces himself of what is real and what is not based upon his belief in Dean. If Sam can’t trust Dean (and remember, Dean told him that Sam has to trust him - that it has to be “stone number one”), if he feels like Dean is actually blaming him for what happens when he hallucinates?
What is that going to mean for Sam’s hallucinations? How is he going to be able to tell what is real and what is not when what he uses to define that is crumbling?
I’m scared. I’m really, really scared. Because Sam is falling apart and only has Dean to go to. Dean is self-destructing and refusing to lean on Sam. I’m afraid they’re both just going to fall apart and no one is going to be there to catch them.
OH SO HARD
TO RAIN IN
But let me just say one thing…right now…while I’m clenching my jaw and trying to howl and kick and cry: Dean needs a good hard old-fashioned gloves off, rings on, so hot it’s cold kind of back-handed slap. Fucking hell, man! I can’t believe Dean just used Sam’s hallucinations (the grief, the pain, the struggle, the madness) against him. Wow. Way to be an awesome brother, Dean. Way to be trustworthy and loving. You’re so awesome Dean. I hope all that denial and repression is working for you, love, I really do *slow clap*